Narusasu Fanfic: 'Bounding Blood' part eight.

'Yes, you heard it right! DEAD!' Naruto's face was pulled in a pained grimace and I took a step towards him, my mind was completely blank.
Dead? How? Dead? How?
My mind was going in circles and the only thing I could get clear out of the complete mess my brain tried to order. Was that Naruto had pain, that his scars burned.
And I had to comfort him.
But before I could my eyes fell on the picture pinned against the wall, I wished I never saw it.
I truly wished I didn't.
I pressed my eyes shut, WHY!?
'GODDAMNIT!' I cried, why? Could there be so much irony? Could there be?
The people on the picture, Naruto's parents.
The people I had assassinated,
With my bare hands.
The hands I had touched Naruto with..
The hands that had ran through his hair, the fingers that slid over the soft skin in his neck.
The hands that were once stained with the blood that runs through him as well.
I was the one who hurt him indirectly, it was all my fault. Mine and mine alone.
'Sasuke!?' Naruto kneeled down next to me (I had fallen down, how I can't remember) and let his hand rest on mine. 'Are you okay? Sasuke!? Answer me!'
I sat up so fast I felt sick. And pulled my hand away as burned by fire.
I cannot let him touch me again, I brought him in danger, I killed his parents.
I hurt him, something I can never forgive myself for.
'Sasuke…?' I looked in the face of the person I love, that was wet with tears.
And that would be stained with blood if my brother found out about us.

'An assassin may NEVER love, may never have an relationship. It won't work out, and you might end up having to kill that person. Do you understand that? Sasuke?'

Why hadn't I listened to him before? I should have shut it all out from the beginning, I was bound to this life. To this job. I was marked with it, my hand ran over the tattoo in my neck, irremovable.
It began burning, and my eyes flashed red, the Sharingan.
My fingers longed to kill, kill something. Take out the sadness and rage on SOMEONE.
But not Naruto, who was looking at me with big eyes. In them I recognized something that looked like fear, it was just a flash. But enough to awaken me from the daze.
I had to say it, to keep him safe. To make sure he didn't have to suffer any more than this.
'Stay away from me Naruto. It's over.' I turned away from the shocked face and rose myself to my feet. I wanted to walk away, but Naruto grabbed my shirt.
'WHY!?' I clenched my teeth to make sure I wouldn't cry.
'Because I'm not the person who can make you happy, Naruto. I can only hurt. Nothing more. I am born for it.' I pulled loose from the grip on my shirt and walked outside, into the cold air.
Away from Naruto.

I just sat there, for an hour maybe, or three. I don't know. I kept looking at the closed door, hoping he would walk in again and say it was a joke. It HAD to be a joke.
It couldn't be real, Sasuke couldn't have left me. He couldn't.

First comes denial, then comes the anger. And at last the sadness.

I forgot the quote immediately after thinking it.
I sat there, still hoping.
But when the clock striked twelve in the night, he still hadn't come back.
My hope had faded away, it made place for incredible anger. Anger worse than I ever felt.
I ran through the house, and then passed the mirror in the hall again.
I looked at my face, in the blue eyes burning with anger that couldn't be explained.
Suddenly I was so discussed at myself I gagged, I grabbed something of the ground without looking what it was.
I threw it at the face in the mirror while screaming, before I knew it the mirror broke.
In thousand shards of glass, I didn't even try covering my face.
I had lost hope.
In a flash I saw what I threw at the mirror before passing out while feeling pain.
The stone Sasuke had given me.
With the words "I love you" carved in them.
I didn't even want to fight the comforting darkness around me.